kaash...

kaash aisa hota.. kaash waisa hota.. kaash yeh hota hi nhi aur yeh kaash shabd kbhi zindagi mein aata hi nhi...

hum apni life mein kitni saari cheezo se bandhe hue ha, kitna kch life mein hum krna chahte kbhi yeh kbhi woh.. and life k har moment ko jeena chahte iss sharth pr ki dono muthi mein  sab kch ho..

sayad humne kabhi ek muthi se lena toh ek muthi se dena seekha hi nhi tha...

aksar yuhhi hum bethe bethe past mein chle jate and sochte ki kash aisa hua nhi hota kash woh pal nhi aya hi nhi hota... uss kaash mein bhi hum kitni aashayein dekhte... kaash yeh pal thum jaye...kaash uss pal ko mein dobara jee loon.. and kaash woh pal kabhi aata hi nhi...

kyu hum uss kaash k baare mein itna sochte jo ho gya, jise hum change nhi kr sakte... kyu hum humesa uss past mein jeete jisme kabhi khuch nhi hota ....

kaash kaash krte hue sayad yeh pal bhi chla jaye .. use pehle ki ap again kaash karo better ki humesa khud se kaho ki yess mne yeh bhi krliya wajeh uske ki kaash aisa na hua hota...

zindagi ha, bhut kaash dhikhayegi isse acha aap kuch zindagi ko dhikhado...

-aakar yuhh mujhse puchti meri taqdeer bta kya likhu usme mne muskrakr kha jo likha ha mita de hum apni taqdeer khud bnana seekh gye ha.....

It's your day..

Happy birthday to the most amazing and fearful shouting girl i have ever seen.. :) happy birthday divya, may god bless you and you get all success in your life..
D-desi
I-indian
V-velle
Y-yaar
A-angrezin
(haha kuch bhi)
When the first time i saw you i find you the simple pretty girl who only knows two words "f**k you" haha... When the bond of our friendship grown then i realized you are the girl who use to say truth to the people and because of only this peoples hate u haha but its their problem... not ur...
I used to remember the trips that we have together so what if it is of 1 day but its always cheerful.
I still remember the day at fest "aurora" and after that our late night drives and that fucking people who gives us a damn look and we used to look each other what the wrong has been??
And the days working in "HUM" unforgettable moments and the only time when our bond of friendship got strong.. and i still remember how u use to shout on me for all single things even its my fault or not because you knows well that you only find me with whom u can be as u are
.. hehe
I know while reading this you might feel senti but don't be because i still have your crying videos.. hehe wish i can make again while ur reading this blog.
You have a spirit to say to people what is wrong and right. and the way u shouted that day on juniors is really appreciable.. uss senior ki bichari sitti pitti gulll haha..

We have spend a lot of time together whether its a exam time study or class bunking or tapre ki coffee or my first try to chicken, or the tigra trip or splash or its my makeup time or the coaching time..these r all those moments which we have shared together and made a good memories.
I know my english is very bad i hope you get all this and my pronunciation too worst.. but i knw tu sikha degi angrezin :P
And haan khana kha lena.. warna koi bura maan jayega hehe
luv u babes.. love the way you are..   

Good Bye..

From 2-3 days i'm thinking why good bye are always harder to say... Still thinking of it about the reason but i don't found any...
We met different people in our way and daily we find new experiences. At some way we find attached to them. But later when its comes to say a good bye then we find it most difficult word to say and most typical situation to face up....
I still think of when i found myself struck in situation when my friend was going to leave the city and i came to meet him, at that moment i found its so difficult to say a bye.
You always know that you will remain in contact but still there is a feeling of living alone...
I use to think if we people has to go on then why they used to come in life, than i use to think of a situation when these people came in my life and make my memories colourful...
People use to come in life and always play their role and moves on and play their best role its depend on us how we tackle the situation.
Now i'm living my college life and some of my school friends have move on to different cities and from some no more in contact, same is going to with college friends too, but i have to be prepared for that time.. its never too late. Thinking ki mre kch ache seniors sir , mam bhi chle jayege.. but i'm happy ki kch ache moments deke jayege ... haha
I had read somewhere in a book that "bye" feels like "going forever" and i found it somehow true so i use to say mostly "cyaa" and it makes me feel "we will meet up soon" and it brings a smile on my face.
But still i found it difficult to say but i have to be prepared for it... good bye may not be that easy but they are not that difficult too....
I hope that from next time when people use to wave hand and say a good bye i take in positive manner and say okz i'm going to come at your place.

baarish ki boondh..

Baarish ha khayalon mein sab dhul jayega....

baarish ki boond, geeli mitti ki fragrance, thandi hawa, aasmaan mein lightning.. kya yhi ha baarish ya kuch aur....

I am sitting on my chair typing on lapi, headphone plugin listening to Fm and song is "jo bheji thi dua woh jaake aasman se yun takra gyi ki aa gyi laut ke sadaa.... perfect moment to capture..

I am looking towards sky and found that there is no stars today i love stars but i love rain also..all things cant possible at one moment... either i can choose stars or rain..

Life is also full of choices but not possible to have all the things in life at same moment

baarish kisi k liye khushiyan laati kisi k liye new experiences. small kids humesa boats bnate and chai chapak chai krte nazar aate and whi couples can found out making luv..and singles enjoying raining or introspection  .....

rain always bring smiles on faces ... and you always found yourself thinking about one special person and thinking about some particular moments and you used to find yourself struck in past...

Yeh baarish kuch der ki tham jayegi aur  khushiyan de jayegi... iss umeed mein ki wapas ayegi... kal ka aasma saaf hoga ek new umeed leke ayega ki aj phr koi ajnabi se mulaqat ho jayegi... kl kya hoga nhi jaanti pr aaj yeh baarish aise hi ni jane de sakti iss baarish k saath saare purane gum bhula dugi iss umeed mein ki kal k liye bhi jageh chaiye dil mein.....

hoping ki baarish sabke faces par muskaan laye... han kch logo ko baarish se nafrat bhi hai... but i hope ki unn sabko bhi baarish se pyaar ho jaye....

rain rain come again ...

you brings smile in every face...

happy rose day..

Happy Rose day to all mingles, and happy sunday for all singles..
 as we are celebrating valentine's week.. do you all really think its only for mingles????.. what if some are singles or say 90% of engineers are single...
i am thinking of the first rose that i have got but not on rose day its on my birthday.. I use to think that this valentine week is only the celebration weeks why people not use to celebrate the whole year if they love someone.
Celebrating just one day is bullshit if you can't celebrate the whole year.. or i think its the only day that you should not celebrate .. Really and i can give you the reason too and the main reason is, in india , you can easily caught by the bajrang dal ....
People use to find love another crab if you use to find love than you can never get love..
Chasing the things never let you close to them they get harder to catch ...
If you want to love someone or loved by someone just first love yourself.. Love the way you are..
There is no one else who can love you more except you.. once you started to love yourself you can find your love too.. celebrating the whole year or just one day choice will always be yours but thinking about your single and watching love birds is not bad enough...
Go ahead and tell yourself how much you love.. and than tell those people by whom you get love..
Life is too short.. try to express yourself and your love and care to them..

happy birthday

Happy birthday amaan.. may you live long. You get all success in your life.
I know you don't celebrate your birthday, but i hope you have enjoyed the day.
Amaan i can still write on you endlessly.. words may become less to define you..
You know what is the speciality about you is you can't speak lie.. I am amazed to see that tujhe aaj bhi jhut bolna nhi ata. haha.. han ab jarurat bhi nhi okz..
The best thing about you is you are loyal towards relations.
In seven years of friendship i have learn many thing from you and the best is not to expect from others..
you are the person whose life is mysterious... i use to think that yes i know about you almost but a sudden wave comes and it proves me wrong, and i found out yes there is more to know about him.. haha amaan really its true....
I still remember the day of our friendship when u have pasted on my blazer a piece of paper written "kick me" and you started kicking and i have complaint it to teacher haha and you were out from the classroom. I still remember the day when we use to fight in exams and i use to ask give me eraser or scale and you use to say ja nhi de rha and than after a min you use to give.. my caring friend..
You know what you still not able to express yourself what you use to feel.... its only the people who have to figure it out what happened to you... and in that case my sixth sense works hahaha..
Roadside romio a nickname that i have  given to you.. and you know what ur logai is still missing you..lol
I dont know after reading this you would get angry or not... bt i know tera gussa aj bhi mre pr nhi nikalta...oye gawar sunn khana kha lena plzzzzzzzz .. aur kisi aur ka gussa kisi aur pr mt nikala kr.. atleast khane pr toh nhi yaar.
Happy birthday once again.. aur haan mne uss year wish kiya ta fb pr check krle sachi ....and haan novel abhi bhi likhugi :) cya 

Anger is good

Anger is not bad enough shouting on people sometime is good yes but ask them sorry afterwards.
When i was talking to my friend today i asked him "you don't know how to show anger?"
He reply i know but i don't show my anger to the people who don't even want to change and i don't want to waste my energy on them.
so it means i am not going to change i ask
he said no i am not angry from you and now you are no more kid you are grown up.
i asked him so what is the punishment for grown up?
he reply we can make them understand.
It make me feel lost. I was thinking that when we use to kids we use to shout on people and show them anger, and after sometime we again starts to talk like nothing happened to us before, all normal.
But when you get mature enough you starts to not show your anger no shouting nothing at all it just a silence.., but someday that level of your patience goes high and once you end up talking just by saying i don't want it anymore. just making it a feel like silent dead.
I feel like why we can't show our anger why there is ego???????
If you have grown up than also we can fight on silly stupid things and make it clear . Just if you have grown up doesn't mean to grow up anger or ego. sometimes showing anger to people might be hurt for only few minutes but remaining silence will hurt you for life.
I don't know him exactly but today he has taught me one more lesson of life. Thank you ram for teaching me one more lesson of life "just show anger sometime is not bad enough" and thank you for also the lesson you have taught of expressing your views (kya pta KAL HO NA HO) .....
And in any relationship small bomb is good than the atom bomb to be blast... so go now and show anger to the people if you need its a better option than remain silence..